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Everything is so busy these days. Even people who are retired seem busy. My parents are both technically retired, but now they have their OWN businesses and seem to have less time than ever! (minus the 6 week cruises they sometimes take)
But life is like that. We comlpain when we don’t have enough time, and we complain when there’s nothing to do. But for the most part, especially me in my mid-thirties (cough, cough) life is just BUSY. It’s like a game of TETRIS most of the time eh?
“oh…ok…so TODAY, I have to make a lunch for her daycare tomorrow, wash part of my clothes and part of her clothes and maybe ONE of his shirts, because I don’t have time to do three loads…just the one…OK, THEN..oh right..we said we’re having fish today for supper, you know, to be healthy…yeah..uh…boy…guess I’d better actually buy some. Which means, I have to go to the store..oh man, why didn’t I fill the car up? Oh no, and where’s the rest of the toilet paper? It’s GONE? I JUST bought that? Now how am I gonna blow my nose! What’s this letter? Oh yeah, that membership fee for that good cause I signed up for…they take it out of my credit card? Each month? Well..we’ll see how long I can afford to be a philanthropist for…..ok, so, where was I? Hello? Yes, this is SHE. Sure, tell me about why I should vote for you and NO, I have nothing else goin’ on at this very moment! AHHHHHHHHHH!”
It never ends right? But, that’s life. That’s why we’re here. You have to work, to pay the bills, to raise the kids, to get food on the table. We all have to open mail, scrub the floor sometimes, take out horrible smelling garbage, wipe their noses, clean the remote control because there is spaghetti sauce on it from 2 weeks ago…and on and on. BUT, it’s these things that make the moments of serenity so sweet. When all of the dishes are done, and he’s back outside working in the garage, and she’s asleep. And it’s quiet. Ssssshhhhh. It’s that moment. It’s THAT moment, that is heaven.

Similar to that feeling of quietness…is when you are FINALLY alone in a bathroom stall….and no one at work knows where you are. But that’s just me.
cheers, xo kerr
ps…TETRIS is the magic word today. (600 points!)

I still pinch myself everyday. (not literally, I bruise really easy) It’s been a whole year already of doing the morning show! Where did the time go? It seems like only yesterday that I got the call that I had to come in the NEXT morning. I remember picking up my messages. “Uhhhhh, Kerri, do you think you can start, like, tomorrow?” ‘”Sure!” I said. Then quickly remembered…that I had a 9 month old! Oh my goodness. “What time do I have to get up? When? That early eh…” It was perfect! At the time I had been getting up at all hours of the night anyway! Why not make it a career! Starting any new job is nerve racking, right? Filling in for somebody who people loved and adored was MORE nerve racking!
I had big shoes to fill! Big, giant, oversized shoes. But, all I could do was give it all I had. This was my dream job…right here, right NOW! I remember when the mic went on for the first time. I thought, Oh MAN….WHAT AM I DOING!!!??? What have I got myself into!!?? I was terrified. TERRIFIED! Thank goodness he was patient and had a sense of humour….those early days would have been too scary. And as the days rolled on and the months have passed, I am finally starting to figure things out on this thing we like to call ‘the Morning Show’. I want to tell you, that I am so grateful to you for being so patient, and for giving me a chance. Thank you for allowing me into your life. I wish I could get to know each and every one of you! I am a little quirky, a little goofy and you know now that I am terrible at anything sports related. But, thanks for liking me anyway! And if you don’t, I usually hear about it! lol! So thank you, thank you , thank you for letting me become your friend! ps. Francois and Alexandra say hi and they’re right here and they’re bugging me to get off the computer because she needs a bath and he can’t find the cheese we bought the other day to make a sandwich for tomorrow’s lunch. (and we have a strict budget, so there will be NO buying of lunches…so I REALLY have to go find that cheese) punch in CHEESE for 1000 points.
Much Love and here’s to the future!!! xo kerr

Where do squirrels put all of those nuts? Do you ever wonder? The other day I was watching one and he really looked like he had a PLAN. I read once that squirrels can hide up to 3000 nuts, in different places and come winter, they can find each and every one of them. With NO MAP! This is truly amazing to me. Especially because the snow covers all of the spots where the nuts have been placed! How do they do this? Wouldn’t it be neat if what we knew about squirrels was just all wrong? As it stands, we think that they just make noises, rub their little hands together, put nuts in their cheeks and look cute. Ok, well, maybe they do a bit more than that but that’s pretty much what we see from squirrels. But maybe they actually DO have little whiteboards and tiny erasable markers keeping track of all of the nuts. Or giant wall drawings of the neighbourhood with pushpins. We think they just go home to their hole in the tree or underneath the porch. But maybe they are doing other things. Like coming up more efficient ways to gather nuts. Maybe they are busy inventing things like cheek extensions so that they can stuff MORE in. Or maybe I am just crazy and I have way too much time on my hands to think about this. Join me next blog, when I come down to earth. NUTS for 500 points. Nuts. That’s what I am.

Oh the guilt. I never thought it would happen to me! Has it happened to you? This guilt ‘they’ kept talking about when you became a mother. But what is it? It’s hard to describe. If anyone ask’s exactly WHAT you are feeling guilty about, often the answer is very vague. Or it’s irrational and doesn’t make much sense. Like, ” I feel guilty because I have to work”. OR,” I feel guilty because I am tired”. The question is WHY do we feel bad about it? Really? We have to work? AND we’re tired sometimes? That’s crazy! Isn’t there a vitamin to cure all this? But this guilt just happens. It’s almost as though we are comparing ourselves to SUPER MOM. She can do it ALL!!! She wakes up smiling, makes the children a delicious well-blanced breakfast that varies depending on the day of the week! (check the white-board in the kitchen) Sends them off to school with their homework completed along with perfectly peanut-free snacks. Then off to work…but wait, first some weight-busting exercises to maintain the shapely silhouette that brings home the bacon! Which will be wrapped around the scallops for dinner that very night, which everyone will enjoy, because HER children are NOT PICKY EATERS!!! Then, after everyone has pitched in with supper-clean up, (and yes, 4 year olds CAN and WILL empty the dishwasher without breaking anything), SUPER MOM still has tons of energy, so it’s time to take the kids to the park and play for a good hour or more! (to ensure the kids sleep well!) No TV in sight tonight! No way! it’s bathtime, then snacktime (apple slices) then storytime, then bed time! Whew! 8pm? Wow! Super mom, can’t believe the day is almost over! Time to catch up on work e-mails, family phonecalls, and don’t forget, it’s BRING-A-MUFFIN-TO-SCHOOL-DAY tomorrow, better get started on those right now! punch in GUILT for 500 points.
Working too much, having the occasional nap, sending them to daycare, letting the kids watch too much TV, giving in to their picking eating habits, skipping giving them a bath because YOU’RE too tired…….these things cause us guilt. But they shouldn’t. Being a parent is wonderful and rewarding and incredible. It’s also exhausting. And it’s ok to let things go. Life is too short. Let the dust bunnies grow and the bed go un-made sometimes. Let’s work on being perfectly imperfect.
Gotta go have a nap now,
xo kerr